karmic retribution

Interesting world of Facebook has recently come to my attention. My partner of almost 6 years (in just a few weeks) also joined this week. I know only because I snoop. Interestingly he has not invited me. He's pals with his mother, his nieces and a friend who moved away. He lists himself with no relationship. Also from snooping I know that he spent last Friday with his mother, took her out to dinner, rushed back home to furtively by v-day stuff for me & his daughter. In retrospect, when I queried him last night about what he was doing and his answer was "Ummmmm" I should have just walked over and poked my nose right in, but I was on a mission to get laundry, food, something done. I'm sick to my stomach, weepy and want to get mad, but am not finding anger, of all things, readily accessible. He's out of town, conveniently. I'm sick, it's been raining and my birthday is tomorrow. Conveniently he's out of town (I already said that, didn't I?). I have so much to be happy about. I'm employed, live in an amazing home so close to my sister I can walk (but fat ass that I am, never actually do). I have a beautiful, funny daughter and good friends. OK, tomorrow's a new day. No energy to analyze, just wanted it all recorded for posterity or something. meh, ugh & blah.